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03-Sep-03 1:23 AM
Well I haven’t been writing very much recently, things have been
going great. The first week home was a sit and veg-out week, I don’t
know if it was jet lag or if I was so comfortable being home but I didn’t
do much. The second week I spent with Rex and Corey in Vegas, it helped
get my mind back into the swing of things and now I’m at GOX in
Colorado.
Tonight was the Outlaw dinner night, it was fun and after dinner we went
to the silver eagle for more drinks. I kept back and drank just enough
to relax me. At the Eagle things started to get dramatic one of the couples
was having a few problems. They ended up fighting and the girl ran off,
we all went looking for her and I was the first to find her so I spent
the time doing what I do best, sitting and listening. Long story short,
she’s confused about her marriage and is second guessing herself.
Her husband is caught up in it and wants to help but the more he tries
the more space she needs.
Later after everybody had calmed down we went back to the condo and chilled
out for awhile. I caught up with Chris McCracken which was great since
we got along well but I hadn’t seen him since GOX two years ago.
Soon everybody was hanging out by the room and I felt less and less inclined
to talk about the subjects that everybody was talking about. Before me
and Chris were having some deep discussions, now they were meaningless
and boring drunk talk. So I looked up at the stars and noticed how bright
and beautiful the stars were; the last time they had been that bright
I was in Iraq about 3 weeks into the war.
Then it hit me. Things had come full circle.
I was ignoring the puerile discussions that people were having trying
to look cool just like I had in Scandia. Plus I was mediating the drama
like I had with my friends before I left. The deployment and my real life
had come together. The best thing about all of it is that I’m still
the same as before, maybe a melding of the two parts of my life but still
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